Flame of life
Burn bright and warm
Wave of death
Swell dark and cold
Wind of hate
Kiss me last
Earth of love
Embrace me well

Flame of life
Burn cold and dark
Wave of death
Swell warm and bright
Wind of hate
Embrace me well
Earth of love
Kiss me last

I am an adult
   A child inside
I am calm and composed
   Screaming and hysterical
I am happy
   Angry, scared and sad
I am a smiling face
   To hide the tears I shed

I am an adult
   A child inside
I embrace change with open arms
   Change terrifies me
I am willing to enter the world
   Don't make me leave my bubble
I will find where I belong
   I have never belonged

I am an adult
   A child inside
I am strong and healthy
   Withered in pain
I am open to the world
   My true self hidden
I never cry
   My tears flood the earth

I am an adult
   A child inside
I am both adult and child
   And I sob in silence

I feel sad and abandoned. I have joined a couple of sites and the only people I talk to are ones that I know. I mean that's not all bad, I was just expecting to actually meet people and maybe make some new friends. But I suppose that I can just hang out all by myself and mope.

In addition: I forgot to mention that I have issues and have a hard time putting myself foward in any sitution. If it comes to going to make friends and sitting alone I don't think about making a choice, I just sit at home and mope.

Thanks for the comments.

Clean that room.
It has never been
My room
I suppose that it
Never will be
You need to do something about that room
It is just a space to stay in
Nothing permanent
Though I have been here
Over two years
That room is a mess
Who would have thought
That something so small
Would cause such havoc in my life
Or would destroy a relationship
That room
That it would fetter
And fester
And eat away
That room
It is always there
Silently hanging above our heads
That room
The only problem is
Does she know
Clean that room
Does she realize what torment
She puts me through
That room
Does she know what it is like
To have your whole house
In one small box
That room
If she doesn't
Then I am destroying us.
I say nothing
I do nothing
That room
I cry in silence
So she does not hear.
I scream on paper
So she does not know
Will I ever be able to tell her
You need to clean up that room

They think I lie
When I tell them that I didn't hear
They don't believe me
They think I lie
When I tell them
I was reading
They think I lie
And don't believe
The words that I speak
They think I lie
And won't listen
To what I have to say
They think I lie
When my heart
I show them in my eyes
They think I lie
When I try and tell them
It's the truth
They think I lie
And I do
Just not when they think